DEPRESSION HURTS
In
this post I am addressing you creative people. The following is an article by Kathleen
Pasley about the writer and depression, but this is also apropos for all
creative souls. I will do a little series on depression in this blog because it’s
something with which I am quite familiar, and something I deal with all the
time as a therapist. Kathleen’s article below is a good start.
Love
and beauty, Marie
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“Depression
is more likely to occur in people who have a larger measure of life’s gifts,
who tend to be more sensitive, more driven, more intelligent, more empathetic.
And these very attributes are part of the vulnerability. They feel life more
acutely.”
- Dr. Frederick Goodwin, Former Director of
the National Institutes of Health
"As Scott
Peck says in the opening line of his book, The Road Less Traveled, “Life is
difficult.” And it seems, much of the time, it is even more so for writers. It
is well documented that creative people tend to be more susceptible to mental
illness. In fact, authors are in one of the top ten professions in which people
are most likely to experience depression. So it’s not just the high profile
writers like Virginia Woolf, William Styron, Sylvia Plath, Anne Sexton, Ernest
Hemingway, and Emily Dickinson who have suffered with bouts of depression, but
also many of us who are engaged in creative pursuits without enjoying fame or
fortune. Four of the writers from the above list of six actually committed
suicide.
In his book,
“Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness,” William Styron describes his personal
descent into the despair and turmoil of a depression that included fantasies of
killing himself and, ultimately, hospitalization. Sylvia Plath put her head in
an oven, Anne Sexton used carbon monoxide poisoning, Hemingway a gun, and
Virginia Woolf drowned herself in a river. Despite the sometimes fatal outcome
of depressive illness, many of us still harbor a romanticized image of the
depressed writer, scribbling in his garret, creating works of profundity and
great meaning.
Because of
the solitary nature of writing and the lack of available feedback, many writers
are plagued with negative thoughts about the quality of their work. “Am I
really good enough to be published?”, “How can I call myself a writer when I’m
feeling so blocked?”, “Can I really make a living at this?” are some of the old
tapes that can easily play in a writer’s head. The very nature of the work of a
writer tends towards isolation, economic insecurity, self-doubt and lack of
exercise – the “perfect storm” for experiencing depression – either mild and
situational or clinical, serious and worthy of a doctor’s intervention. When
you spend long hours sitting on your own, digging deeply into yourself to
create a work of art, self-examination and self-doubt can easily lead down the
path to clinical depression and anxiety.
On the other
hand, it seems that creative expansion, spiritual depth and increased emotional
sensitivity often entail a journey through fear and pain on the way to genuine
growth. Therein lies the dilemma – can depression ever be a good thing? While a
writer’s gifts often include heightened intellect and creativity, we must be
careful not to glamorize the illness of depression or assume that every
creative or dynamic person is going to go through the agonies of serious mood
swings. There is nothing productive about being miserable and hopeless, and
speaking from experience, most of us in a depressed state of mind do not have
the motivation or the energy to get out of bed, much less write a great novel
or poem. So what can you do if you find yourself slipping into a mild or even
severe depression? Here are some suggestions that can help:
• Sit down
at your computer and write, even though you don’t feel inspired. There is
nothing like constructive activity to distract and elevate your mood.
• Read an
upbeat book or watch a funny movie to feel relief from dwelling on yourself and
your woes.
• Write out
a list of positive affirmations (positive statements about yourself or your
situation written in the present sense as if they are already happening).
• Write down
ten simple things in your life that you are grateful for. – it is difficult to
hold onto fear and anxiety when we are in a thankful state.
• Reach a
hand out to somebody else in need – witnessing someone else’s difficulties or
pain and doing something to support them can release you from dwelling
obsessively on yourself and your own problems.
• Get a
massage, take a walk in Nature, listen to your favorite music – do anything
that inspires you and makes you feel spiritually connected to something bigger
than yourself or your mood.
Don’t be
misled to believe depressives have some mystical insight into creativity or that
depression (or bi-polar illness) enhances the creative process. On the
contrary, for most of us, depression leads to writer’s block, diminished
courage, less motivation, less imagination and less resilience to everyday
life. Finally, if you experience inordinately long and serious bouts of the
“blues”, don’t pick up your pen…pick up the phone and get the professional
medical help that will put you on the road to recovery."
Please feel
free to share your own experience as a writer with depression and how you have
constructively dealt with it.
Kathleen Pasley is currently at work on A
Hurt in Your Soul – Depression and How to Heal It: A Practical & Spiritual
Guide.
